Stray Dog

Title: Living in dreams.
Pairing/Characters: Al
Rating: G
Warning: Angst
Words: 196
A.N: More of my Al musings. Could be seen as a follow on to His fault.

 

Al can’t sleep, but he stills dreams. He dreams of a time when he and Ed were happy. He dreams of warm summer days in Risembool with Winry, lying in the fields, the breeze gently moving the hairs on his arms.

He dreams that he told Ed to stop, that they hadn’t preformed the transmutation. In his dreams he was strong, strong enough to say no, to stand up to Ed. In his dreams they are both whole. 

He sees fights over Winry, trips to Central for holidays, growing up and helping teacher. Spending time together training their bodies and their minds. Travelling around the country to learn and to teach, equivalent exchange at its best. 

He dreams about love and friendship and touch. He dreams he can touch people and really feel them, touch their skin and feel their warmth. 

He thinks if he had spoken he could have had all this, if he had just said what he felt in his heart he wouldn’t need to dream. 

He doesn’t sleep but he dreams about what ifs. He dreams about what would have happened if he had spoken. He dreams about what could have been.

Title: His fault
Pairing/Characters: Al
Rating: G
Warning: Copious amounts of angst
Words: 450
A.N: I’ve been in an Al-centric mood today.
 

Al can’t sleep at night. Being only a soul trapped in a tin can means he has no eyes to close, no rest is needed to refresh his body and mind. It means he has time to think, time to wonder. Al hates the night!

 He wonders if they’ll ever find the Philosopher’s stone. He ponders what will happen if they don’t. He fears what will happen if they do. What will they have to give up? He knows the stone is supposed to mean they don’t need equivalent exchange but he doesn’t believe it.

Nothing in their lives had ever come without a price before, why would that change now? What would they have to give up this time? Would they be willing to pay? He knows Ed would, Ed would give up his very life for Al and that is what frightens him the most. Ed had already come close to losing his life for him once and Al really doesn’t know what he would do if he ever actually managed to go that one step further next time.

 What would happen to him? Would he live forever? Would he be able to go on? Would he be alone? Would he be able to cry?

 Al hated the questions, they never stopped. He wondered a lot about the future but it wouldn’t stop at that. His mind always found a way to shift to what ifs about the past. They were worse.

 What if mom had never died? What if Ed had never brought him back? What if teacher hadn’t taken them in? What if, what if… It always lead to the realisation that him being sat there like this was his own fault. He caused this, he made this happen. Ed never would have tried getting mom back if not for Al. Ed wouldn’t have lost his arm and leg if not for Al. Ed wouldn’t always be getting hurt if not for Al. Ed would be living a good life, or at least a better one, if not for Al.

 The last question that always comes to his mind is the same night after night. What if he had spoken up? If he had been strong enough to say what he felt, to tell Ed it was wrong, they wouldn’t be here. It was all Al’s fault, all of it. 

The thoughts continue, never stopping till the morning comes, if he could cry it might be easier but he can’t. He just sits there, eyes glowing red in the darkness, silently apologising to his sleeping brother for everything. Envying his broken, nightmare-filled sleep because even that would be better than this.

 Al really hated the night!
 

Title: Enough
Pairing/Characters: Ed et al – sort of.
Rating: G
Warning: None
Words: 193
A.N: Just a little idea that came to me at work a while ago. I finally have time to write them all out. I've literally just finished writing this.

“Hey boss, you coming for a drink?”

 “Fullmetal, what mess have you caused now?”

 “Ed, what have you done to my beautiful automail?”

 “Edward, have you come to drop off your report?”

 “Hey Ed, How’ve you been?”

 “Edward, did I teach you how to do that?”

 “Edward Elric, I do hope you are keeping well.”

 “I love you brother.”

 Ed shot up in bed, faint traces of tears on his cheeks. He looked around, slightly dazed but as he gained some semblance of consciousness, his body began to droop. He was alone, his friends, his brother, were not here. They were there, out of reach.

 He lay back down and turned onto his side, hugging his knee as close to his chest as he could with only one arm. He felt a fresh tear slip from the corner of his eye and run down towards his ear as he shut his eyelids tightly.

Title: Sorry
Pairing/Characters: Ed, Roy
Rating: G, I can’t seem to get away from these family friendly fics.
Warning: A whole lot of angst.
Timeline: Anime, anytime after Nina but before the ending.
Words: 500 – walking the wire, but not falling off XD
A.N: It’s so hard to write angst with such a restraining word limit. Don’t ask, it just kinda flew at me, I had the idea in my head for a while but I tried to ignore it. Obviously that idea failed, so here it is. This was written for the FMA_fic_contest prompt Gamble.



 

Title: Fear
Pairings: Roy/Ed
Rating: ??
Warning: Shows the insanity of the writer...
I'm really new at posting so I have no idea what I'm doing, I just felt like posting something.