I lied

[baroqueangel]

Okay, so two posts in one night, both written in the last two hours...I do like Nano, even if I am running behind on the word count right now ^^; Also, I need to upload more Loveless icons.

Title: Loveless
Pairing/Characters:Ritsuka, Soubi
Rating: G (family friendly)
Warning:umm…none??
Words: 532
Summary: Ritsuka wonders about his name
A.N:This has been bugging me since last night, I may be reading too much Loveless right now.

His name was Loveless, he who is without love, he who will go through life lonely and separate from all other people and when he was at home and his mother was beating him for not being the right Ritsuka, her Ritsuka, and his father was leaving her to it because he didn’t have the heart to stop her and he remembered that Seimei was no longer here to help him or love him he understood why it was his name.

He had no love. Ever since Seimei’s death he had been loveless and lonely and it had slowly been killing him inside. He had smiled, had tried to act like the ‘real’ Ritsuka to please his mother and stop her from hurting him but even when she showed him a smile it was without warmth, without love.

He had thought it was okay, that he could handle it, that when the real Ritsuka came back everything would go back to normal and he would be loved again, would no longer be loveless.

He wasn’t sure it mattered now. He wasn’t sure why he was called Loveless anymore. He had Yuiko and Yayoi and sensei and they made him smile and made him happy and in a way he loved them. He loved that they made memories with him and were nice to him and worried about him. He loved that they seemed to genuinely care about him.

But what made it really not matter was him. That man that had come into his life so suddenly and brought with him so many things that put Ritsuka’s life in danger and caused him pain that he didn’t really mind all that much, after all, pain was nothing to him anymore. That man that told him every time he saw him that he loved him. That man that was sent to him by his dead brother to fight for him and protect him. That man who infuriated him and lied to him and kept things from him. That man who he was starting to love more than he thought he could ever love anyone.

When he held his hand a warmth spread through Ritsuka that had been missing for so long. When he kissed him Ritsuka’s heart leapt and ached for more. Ritsuka may only be 12 years old but he understands what love is and what it means to give your love to somebody else and he wants to give his love to that man. He wants to hold him and stay with him and feel his warmth and protection. He doesn’t know how that man really feels about him, whether or not it’s all a lie that Seimei told him to say but he doesn’t really care. All he cares about is that he is falling in love with that man more and more each day. With his stupidity and his secrets and everything else that makes him who he is. Ritsuka loves it all. Not that he’d ever admit it out loud. He really doesn’t understand why his name is Loveless when he seems to be surrounded by love.

“I love you Ritsuka.”

“Shut up Soubi, you idiot!”

“Yes master.”

Comments

[sexkitten426.livejournal.com]

He definitely seems to be beloved, if not in name like Seimei.

[baroqueangel.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think they got the names switched or something <33

[nochick-fics.livejournal.com]

This was very sweet. I loved it!

AND now I'm writing Loveless fic.

[baroqueangel.livejournal.com]

So, okay for a first dip into the fandom? :P

And if my writing random Loveless drabbles gets you writing some too I might have to dip my toe more often :) <33